Confessions of a Former Anti-Feminist Addict

Confessions of a Former Anti-Feminist Addict

I used to hate the #metoo movement, but then I got sober. Photo: Piotr Marcinski on Shutterstock My “Anti-Feminism” Facade I used to think being raped meant being assaulted in a dark alley by a stranger. I hated the #metoo movement. I blamed the victims...
Why I’m Not Letting My Inner Fat Girl Kill My Sobriety

Why I’m Not Letting My Inner Fat Girl Kill My Sobriety

Photo by Diana Nazarali on Unsplash “You didn’t get fat overnight, so you can’t expect to lose it overnight either!” While this diet “inspo” rings 100% true for my drug and alcohol abuse, it sure never applied to my weight issues. I actually did get fat overnight....
Face Your Past Before Your Past Returns to Face You

Face Your Past Before Your Past Returns to Face You

Because when the truth hits, you aren’t going to be ready. The manic relief that comes from the fantasy that we can with one savage slash cut the chains of the past and rise like a phoenix, free of all history, is generally a tipping point into insanity, akin to...
28 Days Since My Last Drink, 28 Days Since My Break-Up

28 Days Since My Last Drink, 28 Days Since My Break-Up

It’s been almost four weeks since my last drink. It’s also been four weeks since I last saw my boyfriend. That’s right, my last drink and my “break-up” happened on the same day. While my “rock bottom” consisted of the 3 months leading up to that moment,  my...
My Boyfriend Drove Me to Rock Bottom, Then Left Me in the Dust

My Boyfriend Drove Me to Rock Bottom, Then Left Me in the Dust

Something significant happened before I hit rock bottom. For the first time in my life I could truly be myself in a relationship. And not in the bullshit “he loves me without makeup” kind of way. In the past, I had always counted on boyfriends to fix me. I purposely...
How I Overcame Binge Eating & Depression With 1 Simple Trick

How I Overcame Binge Eating & Depression With 1 Simple Trick

I do not look back on my binge eating days with fondness. Nothing about that nightmare was remotely fun, yet I didn’t know the first thing about how to stop binge eating. It was a vicious cycle. Unlike my past substance abuse days where good times were still had...
Last Time I Was Sober George W. Bush Was President

Last Time I Was Sober George W. Bush Was President

As my second week without alcohol comes to a close, it still feels as if I am “sampling” this new way of life. It’s like I’m pretending to be a non-drinker, and while this act seems to be fooling everyone just fine, it doesn’t quite feel real to me just...
I Stopped Drinking, Then Realized My Whole Life Was A Lie

I Stopped Drinking, Then Realized My Whole Life Was A Lie

Pretending to have your shit together is a lot like baking your own birthday cake and then eating it alone. A lot of effort that ultimately ends up leaving you feeling worse about yourself than when you started. When my life was a train-wreck all my energy went into...
Freckles, Scissors, & OCD: My Childhood Nightmare

Freckles, Scissors, & OCD: My Childhood Nightmare

I stared at the clock with excitement. Five more minutes, I thought to myself, five more minutes until I can execute my plan. I couldn’t wait for the bell to ring, and not because I hated school. On the contrary, I loved 3rd grade! I got good grades, my teacher loved...